It's been a long time dayo ne?

Summer is going to be over soon. Here comes Autumn again.

It is this time of the year again, when I first started. All fresh and excited to be exposed to the cruel adult world. It has been one year since I arrived in this country. Now I am moving towards another stage of life.

Haven't been writing, probably haven't been thinking lately. Maybe I've been missing out a lot. But at the same time I've been gaining a lot. Something that no one back home really understands. Something that no one around me understands either. It felt like as if I've been quarantined from the world I came from, for the longest time.

I've forgotten too many things that I used to know. I've forgotten who I used to be.

I am still who I am. Things changes and I am getting use to everything I am. I might not be the one that you used to know anymore. But I am still the me that I first started. People take things for granted. People think they know me. Maybe it's just me that make people feel that way. Or maybe this is just how people are. I will soon moving towards another phase where I want to be stronger and braver. Sometimes I think I might not be as strong and still am a scady-chicken. But I have come a long long way. Longer than you ever imagine, with my own strength. I have achieved my unachievable. Been to places out of your reach. Seen things that I no longer know how to describe. Beauty way beyond the describable. I am flipping the pages that people has been missing out.

Sacrifices.

If you want it, you just have to lose it.

This is life.

I am happy. It is tough but my choice leave me no where else to go. Before I accomplish my goal, I will not stop moving. It is still pushing forward, up till this day. I listen every heartbeat and follow it religiously. Machigai ne. Desuyo ne? Maybe I don't have the answers now. I will keep moving. Making miracles. Changing lives. Doing my thing. Until one fine day, people stop trying to understand me and try to accept me. The day will come. When people stop taking me for granted and start to show respect to other fellow human beings. Maybe things will get better.

Along the way, I have learn to know myself better. I am like a sponge. I absorb and release in a brand new form. I treat people the way they treat me. Be it the good or the bad. What you give, I take and give it back. You damn well deserve in return of what you give others.

Hope everything will be smooth going. I will pack my stuff, and get ready to move on again. New environment, new people to meet hopefully. New chapter of a good beginning. This is going to be fun. Next Chapter, Tokyo.

帅不帅？？？

好爱好爱新发型哦！！！ 我可以加入棒棒堂了啦。讨厌！ 啊哈哈哈啊。最近常常人来疯。也许工作真的让人发神经。但我觉得生活更加让我变神经病。这一秒说要变成大美女，下一秒变成大帅哥。是发生什么事了? ゼンゼン分かれない。でもね、うれしいよ、あたし。自分のこと今だよすきだから。大丈夫だよ！接下来会发生什么事,也许老天爷都不知道. 哪里还轮得到我操心.对不对.I will start collecting my happiness now. Put them in a bottle and save it for the future. Anything can happen in the future. But all I need to do now is to make sure I accomplish aims with all 100% of my effort, so that I will never regret. Am I doing it right? Is everything gonna be alright? I have no clue at all. But I will do my best as I always does. I will be blessed once again.

SUMMER SONIC 2009 @ Maishima, Osaka, Japan - August 8. 2009

Gerald from My Chemical Romance

I am a HAPPY PERSON now. Thank you MCR!!! You guys rock the hell out of me!!!

Fireworks are blasting in the sky!!! really big and nice right after their performance.... sugoi!!!

This is a perfect way to celebrate SUMMER. When its farking burning HOT. Summer Concerts are amazing. I'm glad to be part of it while I'm alive. And I feel alive now. Music feeds my soul. I feel charged and ready to go. I will remember this summer forever. With loads of music lover. Loads of beer and liquor. Good company and interesting small stories to share. My life in Japan is almost accomplished.

Thank you Ditas. I know its tough to fight age. and your body mind and soul. Glad you had fun too. If we met 10 years earlier? I'm just glad that we met each other afterall. Love ya. Things will be able to change and get better. You are still young in heart ne?

Next in line, VAMPS. Hyde sama in action in Universal Studio Japan on August 24, 2009. Second milestone to my achievement in Japan.

After I've seen and experience L'arc En Ciel, maybe that's when I'm done with Japan?!?!?!?

We shall see. =)

Left Brain	Right Brain
43%	57%

You are more right-brained than left-brained. The right side of your brain controls the left side of your body. In addition to being known as right-brained, you are also known as a creative thinker who uses feeling and intuition to gather information. You retain this information through the use of images and patterns. You are able to visualize the "whole" picture first, and then work backwards to put the pieces together to create the "whole" picture. Your thought process can appear quite illogical and meandering. The problem-solving techniques that you use involve free association, which is often very innovative and creative. The routes taken to arrive at your conclusions are completely opposite to what a left-brained person would be accustomed. You probably find it easy to express yourself using art, dance, or music. Some occupations usually held by a right-brained person are forest ranger, athlete, beautician, actor/actress, craftsman, and artist.

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好久没有更新了。

最近很忙。

忙着工作。忙着生活。忙着不让自己放弃。忙着不让自己倒下。

感谢短短痛苦的日子里，还有很多不断帮助和照顾我的人。谢谢你们。

虽然痛苦才刚开始，我觉得我应该有足够的力量，继续往前拚。

过了那么久，一直把自己推向最前面。就算不想往前，还是硬着头皮向前走。有时候迷失了，不记得了，还是会潜意识的继续该做的事情。有时候已经忘了思考。每一步都靠感觉。如果不记得感觉了，偶尔会乱了阵脚。但每当这个时候，一定会有人在身边，拉我一把，让我觉得我暂时不是一个人。

在家靠父母，出外靠朋友。偶尔遇到贵人，命还算不错。

我知道自己的命。总是不管辛不辛苦，只要是脑袋里想要的，就会奋不顾身的去得到。常常选择不规则的路。这就是我的命。

我可不可以不勇敢。不知不觉，已经变得坚强。也许有一天，我不再记得自己是谁，至少我记得我很努力。走到今天这一步，创造着自己的历史。明天之后的每一天，都会更精彩。我期待。

GACKT 様 のライフは最高です！　June ２０，２００９　大阪城ホル





















GACKT 2009 Visualive 2009. 4 hours worth of performance. Live drama. Movie Screen. Great theme and story. Good performance, vocal/music-violinpianoguitar/band/dance. Explosion. Great fun. The Cat neko dance machine was so fun. Big screen showing cat's paw and we can all dance according like Guitar hero.

GACKT showed his talent in this live. A lot of his fans. are old women. okay. to phrase it nicer. Middle age ladies. which is weird enough. but I figured out he will make a really good host. Maybe that's why he is really popular among the obaachans.

And we screamed our heads off for more than half an hour. with GaCkt sama. He is CRAZY. Crazy fun. Love it. He has a really big voice. really great band mates. Eventhough we all know he is gay. But if I have the chance. I am sure I could turn him straight. I'm sure I can.

Had a lot of fun. It's a really enjoyable day. Thank you Ditas sama for coming with me!!! =)

くっちゃん、すごいのライフだよ！　Koda　Kumi　TRICK　２００９　大阪城ホル　June 7, 2009









くっちゃん、 どもありがとうございます。 すばらしいのライフだよ。 , 最高の歌。ほんとにすきです。 痛い。I can feel it through your voice... 綺麗のメモリ、でも痛い。 もうちょっと強いね？いしょうに頑張ってます！

そして、デタス様、ありがとうよ！いつも、thank you for being here, there and everywhere. Koda Kumi rocked your world now ne? Really glad that you felt the same way. Smart people think alike dayo ne? hohoho.